Of course, you have to WANT to love Jesus. Without that desire to love Jesus, suffering is more likely to fill you with bitterness and anger.Without love, suffering has no purpose.But there is also that miraculous element wherein God himself introduces us to his love through suffering, and then he conceives in us the desire to love him.Its a wonderful mystery!
You are right that it is all a mystery, the mystery of love. True love suffers without counting the cost, but only the gain. I am reminded of the story of "The Little Prince." Love is such a beautiful gift. Thank you for your beautiful words, Robert. May Almighty God bless you and your dear ones.